Is There Something Wrong with me?

[Ghostfacekiller]

At the age of 16 I came home to find that my mother had died. I Was sad, depressed, and I cried. I started thinking about her again to day, i hate to admit it but I'm kinda happy she is dead. The more i think about it I was never sad when she died but it was like a mask i had to wear cause that is what was expected of me. Im I wrong to think like this?

[exial]

Umm thats a difficult question dude. We dont know your relationship with your mother. She could have been a horrible person, or a great one. Tell us a few things about your mother and i will give you my honest opinion.

[Ghostfacekiller]

Well............ Ever seen "whats eating gilbert grape" I had a mother like his, a rather large women. She also was depressed, schizophrenia, as well as a couple other mental disorders. All we did the last year she was alive was fight and if she wasnt fighting with me it was my father or brother. Its not like i didnt love her, i remember the times we did have fun when i was younger but like i said the last year or two of her life was hell.

[WeirdD]

thats a shame man, try and remember the the good times you had with her, maybe what youre feeling isnt a lack of sadness but more a sense of relief that all the drama is over? i dont know, death is a terrible thing and it always puts things into perspective for us.

edit: personally, i know that despite all the shit ive been through with my parents (there's been a lot) i would be crushed if anything ever happened to them, id give my life for each other of them because of all that theyve done for me and all the shit theyve put up with from me..

[exial]

hmm, i agree with wierdD. I think some time later in your life it will hit you. Possibly.

[a2thae]

It was sort of like that with me and my dad.

[ItsAPoorlyKeptSecret]

There might be some sort of underlining emotions that could comeback to the surface later in life.

But ignorein the fast that it was your mother, and just saying it was a person who passed away, I think its normal to put that "mask" of sorrow on at the time, cause its conditioned into us, taht if we dont there is either something wrong with us or we are heartless.

MY Grandfather and uncle have died with in the week of each other and I sort of feel the same way. Not really heartbroken bout it, losing myself in sorrow. But As long as I realise, this is a tragic event for everyone, but its life and must be accepted. Everyone deals differently. But we are excepted to cry for days if at all.

[charlee]

Well i was working for this dude, cutting trees and cleaning em up. We sawed through the bottom of a tree and it got caught on another tree before it fell. He had to climb up to trim, it went crack crack crack, he said o shit, and his son pulled out his phone to take a picture. he made it down, but i thought it was odd.

As for your situation, I don't think your wrong to think that way. If a burden has been lifted, a burden has been lifted. And vice versa. Either way you think about it, whether or not its unethical, even though you may or may not miss her, i take it that your life was made easier. And that is probably where that feeling comes from.

[exial]

Well i was working for this dude, cutting trees and cleaning em up. We sawed through the bottom of a tree and it got caught on another tree before it fell. He had to climb up to trim, it went crack crack crack, he said o shit, and his son pulled out his phone to take a picture. he made it down, but i thought it was odd.

charlee what does that have anything to do with losing family? Just curious bro..

[JohnLennonII]

There's nothing wrong with you, man.
I can relate to a level.
Would I be sad if my mom died?
Sure I'd be sad, but I think I would be more sad that her death would negatively affect everyone in my life.
I would miss her, but not overly much.
There's nothing wrong with you, and it's healthy that you can talk about your feelings and emotions without being afraid of being called "gay" or "pussy."

[drugfeind]

charlee what does that have anything to do with losing family? Just curious bro..

if the guy died from the tree crushing him the son would have a picture of his own fathers death... thats probly what he was trying to say

[KusKus]

did i make think of this

[Ghostfacekiller]

to a point yes.

[TroubleMaker]

No, there's nothing wrong with you.
Don't feel obligated to mourn a person you don't simply because social constructs dictate that you should.
You can't help what you feel.

[a2thae]

Yes you can.

[JohnLennonII]

How can you help what you feel?
Zippy one liners are good in movies, not in discussions.
We need elaboration.

[exial]

If you dont feel any sadness from the death of a loved one, then the obvious answer is that you must not have loved that person enough to be sad about their passing. Its all phycological really..

[Shanx]

well i know how you feel. i also was not sad when my dad died. i was maybe 11 or 12 but who knows, maybe it will come back to me in the future. i think i felt more sad for my cousin when he found his father outside on the ground with his next snapped. (he fell out a window). so yeah, i dont think theres anything wrong, but its just my opinion.

[Akhyll]

Somewhere, it's not your mom but another woman who died.
And the fact that you didn't "recognize" your mom at the end make you happy because she doesn't suffer anyway and you neither.
Your reaction is normal for some one in your position. The fact that your mom was "insane" help you to slide over from her.

[skittleskitten]

i used to try and psyche my self out readying my self to cry encase ppl close to me ever died, in reality i had no desire to cry at all, but i wouldnt want ppl to think of me as cold hearted when i wasnt.

[Lord Midol]

I was more upset when I lost my dog than all of my relatives deaths combined.

[EmbrExcell]

Relatives are hardly worth anything.
A dog is loyal, and most just can't stand to see harm befall things as innocent as a dog.
I don't love my family enough to think of them as my family, but a cat I met days ago could make me cry.

[DHMO]

You may have loved her but you never liked her, there is a subtle difference that few people realize, so no, you are not bad, terrible, or crazy, you are you, and that is that.

[xDarryl]

Must be something wrong witu ya, maybe your gay?

[drugfeind]

lmfao darryl. WOWOWWOWO that was pathetic, open your fucking mind man, holy jeez. "must be something wrong with ya" like wtf were u thinking when u said that. maybe he just doesnt want be a conforming whore. hell when i lose while playing rock paper scisors i cry more than when i lose a family member. it doesnt matter that this dude got by without caring. he just lost his love for her near the end, and it resulted in him not caring about her death. if someonethings "wrong" with anyone its you and your face

[ravenscar]

damn people will you let me noob up threads, and drug is right so listen to him

[drugfeind]

never thought id say this, but thank you raven. it still doesnt matter though people wont listen, they enjoy ignorance much more.

[ravenscar]

can you change that sig, its annoying and keeps making me fall out of my chair in laughter

[drugfeind]

is this signature better?

[ravenscar]

very, i aint hurting my fucked up hip anymore now

[drugfeind]

lol we are like the only ones posting anywhere :|

[EmbrExcell]

I like cats :d derpp

[ravenscar]

whyd you change your avatar.........oh yea cause we thought it was a girl, this one doesn't help with that problem though

[EmbrExcell]

Because this avatar is just too cute. And Chelsea got old.

[ravenscar]

cute? chelsea?
btw heres a vid for yall http://www.wimp.com/copedeath/

[drugfeind]

Because this avatar is just too cute. And Chelsea got old.

lol Chelsea frightened me every time i looked :P it was awsome. now u look like a pussy hahahaha no offence though.

[Ghostfacekiller]

Why the fuck was this dug up ?

[ravenscar]

lol Chelsea frightened me

you must scare easy

[drugfeind]

lord midol brought it back from the dead
and chelsea just reminded me of a childhood type nightmare.
i remember the first time i realized she was scarey i was trippin balls on dxm.

[EmbrExcell]

Yeah Chelsea is pretty creepy.

How can you not think Rei is cute though?

[drugfeind]

rei is the polar opposite of chelsea lol.
she was evil, and ugly, but he is smiling and not all bloody lol

[EmbrExcell]

Rei is a girl. A cloned girl made from others genes who doesn't know how to cope with social situations and is generally hated by all. That's why the pictures cute because normally she wouldn't even know why to smile.

And rest assured that I'm in the process of finding a new avatar.

[drugfeind]

oh. so thats why she is using her fingers to make a smile..very interesting dude. i have trouble copeing in social situations... and a lot of people hate me.